A Jewel clears the Fallow Fog
This new Temari comes through the fallow fog that has been surrounding me for several months. It is 39 cm. circumference, A C10 with 12 centers and 2 layers of pattern. It joins a growing number of ‘friends’ in the Pink and Green group.
The fallow fog has me wondering what, how, when, and every other question about my well being. It has been rare to feel so alien to my out pouring of creative energy and its manifestations. A general loss of focus since Mid-July. Reading and escapism through movies, walking, napping and just feeling unattached to most everything. A middle land of not bad-not good-just foggy. No drama. The ultimate perennial questions of who am I, what am I doing, why am I here, etc, etc, etc. A round and again, certainly not my first adventure into this foggy landscape. It seems to have slipped in under the door and will, of course, slip out at some point. No forcing it, trying to alter the fog doesn’t seem to help either. Waiting and being present when I can manage that is what’s current. Daily maintenance, slave jobs, etc, pass through but finding ”meaning” in anything just isn’t happening.
Fallow times, or those resting pauses are far harder for me than when actively engaged in whatever is before me. Probably true for most of us. Quiet repose when I want it is not the same as finding me in the foggy place by happenstance. Well, as we all know, this too shall pass in it’s own way and time. Relax and float through, quit asking to understand, be present in this and every moment. I know all those platitudes in mind and by heart, they have carried me through the thick of things many times along the way. I just wish…………………